Trying not to kill kindness

I haven’t had the best of weeks. By Thursday, I started feeling human again…and that’s when humanity could show it’s frightened face. Monday-Wednesday, I was wounded, battered and on edge. Tuesday, I purposefully fell asleep on the couch before 8 pm. Too angry and pitiful to go away to my room. This was after the … Continue reading

Meandering

I visited a church today, for the second time in 2014. In the fall of 2013, I darkened the door of a church approximately 8 times, at least 3 of those were in another city while visiting family. My church “search” has been non-existent. I’ve put it off, at first I was desperate – but … Continue reading

I am grateful. I am grateful. I am grateful.

My father was diagnosed with prostate cancer this past week. I typed that sentence and stopped. No. No, he wasn’t. This must be a dream. Not the worst dream I’ve ever had, but one that has to end. It’s going to end, right? I just slept funny, mixed up my wakefulness and dreamstate. This isn’t … Continue reading

Unexpected

I met this girl once in Bangkok, because I watched her and her sister-in-law ask several Thai people for directions to no avail. No one knew where to direct them. I sighed, drug myself out of my over-stimulated-introverted haze, and offered to help. We spent, oh, perhaps 25 minutes together. Five minutes helping walking together … Continue reading

2013

For a mid western girl grown in the cornfields, 2013 was a year of intense change. I caught myself remembering an email I wrote to a friend after my senior year of high school. I was complaining about my family moving house, me starting a new job and announced my hatred for change. Since that … Continue reading

LIT COFFEE – Ethical gifting {GIVEAWAY!}

This is part of a Series. {I hope you’ll read the rest} When I became interested in fair trade, I couldn’t fathom where to begin. If I decided to be fair trade overnight, I’d go bankrupt and probably give up the next week. Perhaps I would have given up entirely. Actually, I did that a … Continue reading

Gifting with Ethics Pt 1

This is the beginning of a Series. {I hope you’ll stick around for the rest} There’s a whole lot of narcissism that erupts this time of year. At least there is in my life. Granted I COULD be giving extra money, or volunteering extra, or shoveling my neighbor’s sidewalk in the Christmas Spirit. The reality, … Continue reading

Garfield had the right idea.

“How are you, Megan?” “ooookay-eh” I squeaked out. “Well, not really. I’m 15 minutes late, fighting a cold, the roads are awful, I think I forgot to eat breakfast. Oh, I forgot my lunch.” The day went downhill from there. By 8 am, I had woken up late, realized I was losing my voice, discovered … Continue reading

Real talk chaos of my life.

I work in an industry where appearance is everything. No, but really. I am intensely interested in the structure of a building, in the arrangement of your windows, in the amount of glare I can prevent by specifying appropriate window treatments, and how much more productive you will be through these decisions – but really. … Continue reading